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Apr. 9th, 2013 | 12:24 pm

Very quick message.
It's been crazy crazy long, I'll have to look into my history just to find out the last time it was that I left an entry lol.
Anyways, hope everyone is doing great and I'll write again soon :)

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Oct. 30th, 2012 | 12:50 pm

Funny...can't find a bf but can get two phone numbers in a bath house...

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Oct. 11th, 2012 | 10:45 pm

I think I'm pretty luck to have the job I have. All this week I've been working on the Frida Kahlo and Diego Rivera show.
I've been handling and hanging out with iconic Kahlo paintings, paintings that I studied in school I now am touching and lighting...
It's pretty awesome

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Mom news...(and leather news too)

Oct. 1st, 2012 | 01:58 pm

So I got the news from the fam about my mom. She had here cat scan on I think Wed and got the results on Friday and the mass has shrunk at least half since she started treatments so the chemo is completely working. the doctors are super happy with how my mom's body is reacting to the therapy and apparently the chemo on her lymphoma is also working on her bone cancer. So if everything goes according to plan she shouldn't have more treatments than the allotted 6. So I believe sometime after Christmas (and this is not for sure) she should be done her treatments which is great cause she needs to start healing from the chemo and she's as bald as a cue ball.
Also my sister had her baby girl about 5 days ago...can't remember if I already wrote about this.

And in other very different news I went over to a friends place tonight and got my outfit ready for the Dream party which is a huge fetish party going down on the 13th. I'm wearing an X harness over a white short sleeve button up shirt and black leather short shorts with white stripes up the sides, black boots...and a smile. I'm super excited. My friend thinks that I will lose the shirt when I'm there...he doesn't know me as well as he thinks. I may go nude once in awhile but I'm quite shy, plus a button up underneath a harness is not the easiest thing to take off.

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painting woes

Sep. 26th, 2012 | 12:22 am

I'm getting mad at myself...I need to get creating again. I need a read hard kick in the ass to get going on s new series of work and I think the problem I have is that I feel the need to do series. It was drilled into my head during school that proper artists have themes and do series of works. What I need to do is get over that so that I can do one offs. Just paint a painting and be done with it, not plan on a group of paintings and then procrastinate on them cause I become overwhelmed with the amount of work it entails.
I've been wanting to paint a friend in the style of albrect duer (sp) so I think I'll just do it and get it out of my system.

Also my new niece is so cute and has brown hair which is neat cause her big sister is a red head so now they have both. They will be so cute together.

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New Uncle

Sep. 25th, 2012 | 12:26 pm

I'm the new uncle of a new baby girl Ella. My sis gave birth this morning and she`s adorable. Yay
I also found a beautiful leather jacket at a second hand store in Kensington Market. Only $30 :)

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Sep. 18th, 2012 | 04:16 am

I have always been interested in leather.
Two main things have always stood in my way of investigating it.
#1 the money, it's expensive and I can't afford it
#2 Is the more psychological side of it...

I have always seen myself as a boy and never a man.
I'm guessing it stems from having a bigger older brother that was always the man out of the two of us. He is taller, athletic and was always the one doing the manly things. I was quiet, passive, shy and physically smaller. I really think that has crept its way into my self image. Wearing leather to me is a very masculine thing to do. I've been scared to wear it, even a basic leather jacket because of its connotations, I thought I never lived up.
So I've decided to make an effort to get involved in the leather community here in any amount that I can. I have friends that are willing to let me borrow pieces and I want to go to the next leather night at the Black Eagle.
We'll see how it all goes. It's weird...I can go to naked nights there no problem, but the thought of a leather night fills me with stress and doubt like the second I enter the door I would be deemed an imposter.

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Sep. 9th, 2012 | 05:39 am

So my mom is apparently doing really well. The mass in her intestine has shrunk significantly and apparently the same treatments are working on the bone cancer as well? I guess the bone cancer treatment when they get on it won't be as evasive as we thought without marrow harvesting which is amazing.
I would give anything to be home soon and be with her but the only thing the plane companies will accept for tickets is money :(
I'll get there for Christmas I'm sure but to just be there for her I think would help so much...this whole working to survive thing is really getting in the way.

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Aug. 27th, 2012 | 12:00 am

So my mom went through her second round of chemo on Monday. The doctors say that she is responding well but they haven't done a cat scan yet to see how the mass is doing. that won't happen for awhile.
Her white blood count did go back up but of course is down again because of the last treatment but at least it can bounce back.
She is feeling good, starting to eat again from Monday and seems to now hit a rhythm. My sister keeps me in the loop and I call whenever I can.

In other news I'm off to a friends cabin later today. Its in Muskoka country and the cabin is only accessible by boat which is pretty cool. It's going to be a bit of a gong show. Some of the guys going are known for being partiers and I'm pretty sure I'll be the oldest one there :(
There's only one other gay going so it will be a straight fest but they are all good people that I know of anyways. Good friends and a nice ass lake til Wednesday...I can't wait.

I also just received my Ontario ID today...I'm officially and Ontarian...kinda weird, I'm such a prairie boy and really still identify as a Saskatchewanite.

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My Life as it is Now

Aug. 12th, 2012 | 11:31 pm

So I've been putting off writing this but I want to get it out. This journal has recorded every major part of my life for the past 4 or so years so this should be added to the list. I also wanted to wait til I came back from my trip home to write this.
I found out about 3 1/2 weeks ago that my mom has cancer.
It started with stomach pains that lead them to finding a tumor in her small intestine.
It turns out that she has had bone cancer for years now that spead to her lymph nodes where it started causing her the pains.
Now the good thing about it all is if she is to have cancer the doctors say these are the best ones to have for treatablity. The bone cancer is very slow moving and has a high success rate. The Lymphoma I know less about but can be treated with Chemo which she is going through now. They need to kill the Lymphoma before dealing with the bone cancer cause its a lot more evasive a procedure but most likely they can harvest healthy bone marror from other parts of her body so we don't need to rely on a donor for it. Apparently the best chances for a donor would have been my uncles and even then theres a one in four chance of them matching.
She called me and told me that the tumor was cancerous and within a week I was back home with her and the family. My brother, sister in law and nephew flew down for the weekend so we could be together.
She is in very good spirits but I just found out after I got back to Toronto that her white cell count isn't bouncing back after the chemo so she's going to be partially quarantined to the house during the treatment which I know will drive her crazy.
It was good being back and seeing her and what she's going through with my own eyes. It was killing me not being there and feeling completely trapped.
So yeah, thats whats up in my life right now...
I am kinda hanging out with a really great boy...well two actually. Both have made it clear that they aren't looking for a relationship (but what guy is it seems?) but I enjoy their company...I might actually be falling for one of them, we'll dsee how that all plays out.
I hope everyones doing well and enjoy the week :)

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